I've been a lurker here on loseit for a long while looking for motivation, heck I've even posted a long while ago. I have let myself go, especially after having my daughter, she became my sole focus and all my energy goes into her, so when it's time to eat I always have an excuse to not eat healthy.
I stepped on the scale last night for the first time in months, and I'm the biggest I've ever been. Almost 300 lbs (2 lbs shy ... ). That was a hit in the gut and things started to make sense in my head. Why have I started feeling more tired, I can't take a walk around the block with my daughter without feeling like I'm falling apart, well at 5'9" and 300 lbs, it's all started to make sense. My family is all overweight and most have developed diabetes. I know the consequences but continue to pretend it's not going to happen to me. Or pretend that I'm not getting fatter and had to buy bigger shirts than I ever had before. In fact, I let my wife buy my shirts because if I don't go shopping it doesn't pain me looking at myself.
I don't know what I'm doing to fix this quite yet. I have the knowledge of what I need to do (well and then some), but never had the discipline to actually do what I need to do. Today is day 1, and all I know i'm going to do is track my food. Past that I don't know, but it's weighing heavily (heh) on me that I need to get healthy so I can actually keep up with my daughter as she starts crawling and walking.
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