So far, I’ve lost 65 lbs since June 8th, 2018. You’d think that after this amount of weight loss, you’d begin to gain some confidence. People notice, friends say how proud they are of you, you can fit into your old clothes again, etc. But it’s never enough. My two closest friends are gorgeous, slim, outgoing, smart and funny. Me being 21 and in college, I enjoy going out to bars and socializing. Trying to socialize, rather. But for some reason, I can’t stop noticing how little attention I get from men. I know it’s shallow, and I’ve tried to not let it bother me, but I can’t seem to let it go. I’ll get a drink with my friends, feeling confident because I decided to dress up and I’m feeling thinner than I have in a long time. But then my friends all begin to get hit on, one after the other, all night. And somehow, I have become the DUFF that stands off to the side, trying to socialize, but just end up feeling like I am intruding. By the end of the night, my friends have had all their drinks paid for and got several cute guys numbers. It’s not their fault that they’re attractive and they get hit on, and people are going to like who they like. It just makes me feel disappointed in myself. It makes me forget that I have made progress and I am continuing to make progress. I know that one day, if I work hard enough, I’ll be at my goal weight. Sometimes I just wanna be there already. I’m just tired of feeling like the DUFF.
I had to vent about this because I don’t feel that my friends will understand where I’m coming from, as they have never struggled with being severely overweight. Maybe some of you feel like this too. Thanks for reading.
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