I've had MyFitnessPal downloaded for 3 months but didn't use it until today. I put my calories in at 1200 per day. It's low, but I don't have the ability to exercise too much. My ankle is 80% healed from a severe break 1 year ago, and I was lazy with PT, so there's tightness from my foot to my back. I don't want to injure myself. The extra 100 lbs I'm carrying ain't helping, clearly. I don't have a car here, so even a trip to the grocery store (10 minute walk, plus 42 staircase steps) is hell. Awful cramping, and I have to take breaks because my muscles are spasming and hurting like crazy. I can breathe just fine, and don't feel weak. Yet I have to take a break and try to do a mini-stretch in secret, in public, red-faced, sweating like crazy, with ill-fitting clothes, to boot. Oh hell, ugh. I had social anxiety before, but being so fat and visibly uncomfortable outside is a whole new level for me.
So it looks like it's 1200 calories a day and some serious living room dancing and home workouts for me. All in all, Day 1 went alright. Tried black tea, it suppressed my appetite but after 3 cups I felt ill. So I did my awkward and sweaty grocery store trip, bought a bunch of broccoli, pickles, and non fat yogurt.
I'm 230 pounds, my body needs to feel full if this is gonna work. And it has to work, because frankly I'm fucking miserable continuing like this. So what if I sweated just to buy broccoli. This will get easier.
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