Ugh, I am just in an annoyed place right now. I was overweight for pretty much my entire life. My mother was never a great influence to help me lose the weight or eat healthy. Grew up in an Italian family where pasta and heavy sauces and meats etc etc was just the normal. I finally decided to turn my self around, save up money for a house, and with that came not eating fast food pretty much anymore. I lost 100 pounds over about 2 1/2 years, and it was hard ass work. I was in the gym for a long period of time every day, and I had to watch what I ate so diligently, it took over my life.
Finally, after a year or two of maintaining my weight it seems that everyone thinks they have a say in how what I eat and do compares to their life. Almost every other week, my mother and brother in law make the same comment. "I hate him, he just eats whatever he wants and doesn't gain a pound". UHHHHHH NO I DONT! Yeah maybe I have struck a balance in my life where I see food as fuel now and not as something to indulge in every day. Yeah I might go out and eat a cheese steak or a rack of ribs, but you dont see the next day when I do a small fast for lunch to make up for the excess in calories I took that day. You dont see the hours in a day where all I think about is food, and how I cant eat a burger and fries every day for lunch like i used to. You dont see me stand in front of my fridge and have to tell myself no to eating something bad for me at 1 AM even though I am hungry, so I go eat a damn caramel rice cake and a small cup of skim milk instead of the chocolate shake with whole milk I used to make.
Don't assume that I just eat whatever I want every day, and if you can, PLEASE don't do this to other people. I will be the first to admit that back when I was heavy, I used to say once in a while, "how does he eat all that and not gain a pound". But having someone tell it to me, and act like I am some glutenous pig 24/7 when I work my fucking ass off every single day to make sure that I dont fall back into the same patterns that made me a miserable human being. I struggle with my eating habits to this day, on a consistent daily basis, and will do probably until the day I die. And I hope that I can continue to maintain my weight. And I am DAMN proud of the fact that I am at a comfortable enough with myself finally after years of struggling to know that I can go out and enjoy myself, but be diligent in making the better decisions after to correct any imbalances.
If I can get anything out of this, please just understand that sure someone may be skinnier than you, might be able to eat more than you, and more of something that is unhealthier than what you ate. But be mindful that they may have struggled and continue to do so. Please dont make someone feel bad for not gaining weight, thats not what we should be doing with each other. Instead ask what do you do to be able to eat what you do and not put on weight, they would be more than happy to tell you it takes alot of will power and energy. Best of luck to all you losers out there!
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