I guess it isnt that weird considering I was fat since I was 15 (F28 now) and my new normal has only been a thing pretty recently. I went from 85 kilos to 53 kilos. For the first time in my adult life, Im normal weight. From BMI in the obesity group to BMI 21. From extra large to extra small. Im a US size 2 now. My waist 27 jeans which I bought at the start to motivate me, are way too big now. Its completely surreal. Ive fantasized about having this life and it happened. Cried, been distraught... "Will I be fat forever?".
When people refer to me as skinny, it doesnt seem real. I feel like a fat girl still on the inside, so going shopping feels like a dream. I held up a pair of jeans in a size 2 (eu 34) and thought "these look really small!" And they were slightly big on me. Im so happy Im here and so scared that I will become fat again though.
I get treated differently too now. Not from friends and family, they were all very supportive.
Im not sure when I will get used to and see myself as slim because hearing from others, the feeling never really goes. Who knows. But right now, it feels like a dream.
English isnt my first language so I apologize for typos etc
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