I have never had such a hard time with my body.
About 6-8 months ago, before college, I (18f) was very active in this subreddit and on a great routine with fitness and a great relationship with food. I was very in tune with my body and feeling so confident having lost 30+ pounds and doctors telling me how great I was doing. I felt like I was going back to normal and went shopping for new clothes for my smaller body. I was not “skinny” by any means, but I was significant smaller than I am now, and I was happy. I felt happy and healthy and my doctors celebrated me.
Then, I went to college and gained back all the weight and then some. I have a lot of texture issues with foods because of autism, and the dining hall doesn’t offer any of my healthy safe foods. As a result, I eat very shitty at school. I was having such a hard transition mentally that I didn’t even care about filling my body with nutritious food, just junk. I have so many new stretch marks, I don’t fit in my jeans, and so many other new things about my body that I hate. My jawline isn’t defined and I hate having my photo taken. I feel like shit and it shows.
I need to somehow get back into it. I need to start eating better at school, but I’m not sure where to start because I don’t have a lot of options and I’m broke. I might try to find a better job, but at this point I just need some little thing. I just want to rant somewhere to be heard, because I feel embarrassed discussing my weight gain with others
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