So today I've not only officially lost 20 kg, I've also officially gone into single digits and made a very interesting discovery.
This morning I was hungry, and since I was beaming with joy and figured, oh what the heck, I got myself a chocolate muffin. Now I'm not going to say I feel like weight loss should be celebrated with food, but it felt special enough today and one muffin, I knew, wasn't going to lead to a binge, it wasn't going to ruin all progress I've made, it was going to break a fast but sometimes it's okay to just do that, eat something for the heck of it, as long as we can control ourselves.
So with the glorious muffin in my bag, I sit myself in the train. I take it out, and start eating it. Let me tell you about the muffin. It's not the single best muffin you'll find in the world, but it's definitely a decent one. One I've had so often and always managed to enjoy. Bit dry, and I believe their other muffins far surpass it, but this one is on the lower end of the scale for sugar content. I do love chocolate, so it's something that usually made the muffin's bit dryer state worth it. What could go wrong? A celibratory muffin. Not a reward, but celebration! I was set up to fully enjoy it, seeing as I hadn't had anything of the sort for such a long time.
Still in that happy mood of having accomplished such an important mini-goal, I munch down the muffin, taking my time to savour it as much as I can. But try as I might, it did not live up to expectations.
The feeling I had last week of having dropped 3 clothes sizes, of my new 3-clothes size down pants getting loose again, old clothes fitting, trying on my old favourite t-shirt and going "wtf, this looks like I'm wearing a bag!", no, that muffin didn't even come close.
It didn't just pale in comparison to the amount of satisfaction the weight loss has given me, it was just... Not satisfying at all. I'm sure the best muffin in the world couldn't satisfy me anymore. I've upped the bar on what truly satisfies me. That is feeling better, healthier, prettier. Food... Whatever. I'm sure I could have gotten more satisfaction from just a nice glass of cold water.
It's true what they say, nothing tastes as good as feeling great!
FYI, I'm omad/keto/extended fasts. So yeah, I haven't had anything of the sort in since forever. And I'm pretty sure I won't be having any any time soon.
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