I've tried a lot of things over the past decade to lose the weight I've carried with me since I was 8 or 9 years old, but none of my efforts have worked so far (largely because of my own stupidity, lack of willingness to put in the effort, and general laziness). In 2018, I got to my highest weight ever of 335-345lbs (honestly, I'm not sure what it was because I stopped weighing myself after I hit 330, but I know I was larger than that at my heaviest). I'm a touch over 6'0"; with the weight gone and having the confidence to stand up straighter, I'd probably be 6'1" or close to it.
I'm done with being fat. I'm done looking in the mirror and hating what I see. I'm done having my belly and hips and moobs get in the way while having sex with my wife (who is currently 5 months pregnant, super horny and wanting it all the time, but so many of the positions don't work because of my weight). I'm tired of her not being physically attracted to me anymore (I was 220lbs when we met 10 years ago... still a little pudgy and flabby, but nowhere near where I am right now). I'm tired on not being able to be an active part of my toddler son's life and not being able to chase him around for hours. I'm tired of getting on the floor to play with him and having a hard time getting back up on my feet without a good amount of grunting. I know I'll need to be more active if I want to keep up with 2 kids under 5 in the next couple years! I want to be active with my kids and wife instead of them going off to do active things together, leaving me behind because I can't keep up or complain the whole time we're being active together. I'm tired of having aches and pains to complain about when I'm being active. I'm tired of making excuse after excuse for myself being fat (i.e. the morbidly obese family I was raised in, the eating habits I learned from them, my addiction to eating (especially convenience foods), having flat feet, being tired after I get home from work, and general lacking energy to do the things I want to in life. I want to not only be around to see my children graduate, get jobs and become parents themselves, but I want to be in good enough physical shape by that time that I can be active with them and my wife, and go traveling, hiking, biking, and enjoy my retirement years. I want to GET to my retirement years! I don't want to turn into my father who, at age 57, has high blood pressure (my blood pressure is already elevated), DVT, joint problems and gout just to name a few of his issues. I don't want to be taking medications of any kind for the rest of my life. You only have one body. I've already f*ed mine up plenty in my just-under 30 years of life (I'm 29). I'M DONE!!!! 2019 IS THE YEAR I CHANGE!!!! Before I turn 30!
So here I am, putting my current physical state out there on the worldwide web, in hopes that the presence of these pictures online will motivate me to post a better set of photos by this time next year. Thanks for listening.
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