For a while I've been unhappy with my current weight but due to a lot of lifestyle choices as well as just plain bad luck and impractical aspects of life I haven't been able to make any significant losses and in some ways, regressed in terms of level of fitness and activity so even maintaining somewhat healthy standards while being overweight is difficult.
Right now I currently live alone (technically a roommate but she is hardly ever present) so I have no one to hold accountable but myself, which puts on stress for me to do well.
Both my income and time are extremely limited; most days I am out of the house for anywhere between 12 and 15 hours, and even on weekends I am out for 2 to 4 hours working. This leaves me with very little options in terms of food other than grabbing something while out. I enjoy cooking, and when I get up the energy (and money for ingredients) I can make good stuff, but the problem ends up being a lack of motivation to actually eat anything I make due to simple fatigue at the end of the day. For example, one night I made spaghetti and meatballs because I had the stuff lying around. I found it more of a chore to sit down and eat it than to cook it. Right now I'm going through the prepackaged bs that is Optavia (my mother paid for it for me to try out for a month) and the only thing I can see working is the fact that I don't have to heat or refrigerate a thing, which helps when I spend 8 hours in an office and 4 to 6 in a car. I would rather eat real food, but I don't see that as a possibility.
Last major hurdle I have is the idea of setting goals. The very idea of making a goal paralyzes me with fear and I become a wreck thinking about it. The only number I have in mind floating around is 200 as a goal weight (usually I'm anywhere between 250 and 270; I'm 5ft7 male, if that matters) but I can't think about that since I just think of all the time I spent not getting closer and I give up before I start. I already know this is caused by GAD and I regularly see a therapist, so the only solution I've found is to basically keep an empty fridge and pantry except for healthy options it's difficult or impossible to binge on. I also have a nutritionist that I can meet with for some ideas, but I know the accountability is on me. Is there anything else I should be working on in this regard, other than my mental state, and are there actually options for me to eat while out of the house (not necessarily a restaurant) that do not require any sort of storage outside of a plastic bag?
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