Hey everybody, I've been a member here from a few months and did my best to avoid posting about my situation. I guess I'm in denial and running on autopilot. I've been suppressing any feelings of stress, depression or frustration by eating my emotions. I'm a 44 years old - only son with a miserable childhood - and married from 9 years. I have two adorable kids. My wife loves me and I love her too, but we argue and quarrel a lot. Good friends but incompatible. The kids are hyper and very demanding too. Online schooling exhausted both of us while the incompatibility ruined just me. I find myself many times sad, depressed, tired, stressed, bored or frustrated. I was in control of my weight before even with yoyo dieting and sporadic visits to the gym, and during the pandemic I kept my keto regime strict till June 2020. After that I fell off the wagon and started eating my emotions till today. I guess I've gained 40 pounds - I'm 275 pounds now - and it's been giving me hell. Body pains, knee pains, back pains, sleeping pains and the list goes on and on. I lost my health insurance too so I have no means of doing any physiotherapy. I wanted to join a gym from the past 6 months to get back on track but my budget was tight. The pandemic forced me to live off of a 25% salary pay for 9 months, then 50% salary pay for 2 months and just yesterday I started getting a 75% salary pay. I'll pay back some credit cards debts and though the money is not enough, I decided to sell some stocks to pay more debts and pay for a gym.
I don't have any support from family or friends about losing weight and I definitely am an introvert so I don't discuss these things with anyone. I'm also trying to be a strong man by suppressing all negative emotions, as if they don't exist, but I guess that strategy is not working. I'm an emotional eater and I failed to find a solution to my problem.
Can you recommend a simple diet that suits me? Keto is not so healthy on the long run and CICO seems to require a mindful person, but I can only maintain mindfulness for a day or two before I drift to autopilot again.
Thank you in advance.
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